Clarity and Understanding

The past few weeks have been enlightening.

I read the blog of an author who knew she was dying and wrote out her good bye to us. This was sobering to me.

I've spent time asking the Father what it is I should be writing, cuz, well I have yet to sell a million books... yes I know - I should allow patience to have her perfect work, it's just that for whatever the reason - I am anxious about it... often worrying when I know I should not.

My personal life, love life that is, is truly wonderful! I wish I could send the ex's a thank you note. God truly made the hurt and pain my footstool... I love this husband and each day finds us learning more about cleaving...

My children are growing and learning and evolving each day.

I'm learning to not take "Basketball Wives" too seriously. They appear to be sad bitter women struggling to just survive.

I watch "Housewives of ATL" for a whole different reason... =~)

Okay, I watch too much reality tv, cuz Ray J is working left nerve AND I'm not certain I care what Chili wants.

They are truly the new soap opera.

I write. I crochet cuz I have a new Nana baby to cover in love. Her name is Raquel. I haven't even been in the same room with her and yet - I am in love.

My friend Lisa posed a question on facebook the other day and it has been on my heart also. It was something about faith and accepting reality about a desire.

I have always desired to give birth to a son. In my plan, my girls have an older brother, but I suppose that it wasn't in God's plan, so I have all these daughters and my youngest is a son - from the hand of God - not from my body.

At 52 I am coming to grips with my reality of it... it may never happen... but God is still God and Sarah was 99......

As I type this I am listening to my hubby sleeping. It is causing me to want to curl up next to him and close my eyes in sleep.
So, I going to try and write again tomorrow...

Be Blessed people, love each other, ask for Godly wisdom in all things and by all means - buy one or all of my books....hahahaha! seriously though - buy one...